Being aware of the sights and sounds:
Silence permeates the Forrest, the air hangs thick and fresh, a bird call, the tree, rock, water and hill.
It all fills the landscape with space, a beauty that roams free.
The calm, still, silence in nature captures the awareness of my whole self to deflect any worry I may harbor for the future.
To stand tall, outside my anxiety with high energy inside my body, I push myself to step towards the object of my depression.
Another words, I use my energy to act by doing the thing my anxiety engulfs.
I walk strongly, calmly towards and through the object of my anxiety.
I slowdown only to refocus my intention to do the things I am anxious to do until I am done and home to a safe place to rest.
I call it my anxiety workout.
I strive to use my high and moderate energy level every time I am anxious to do the ‘anxiety workout’.
I practice my anxiety workout to develop the habit in my day to day affairs.
I feel the inner landscape of my Anti Anxiety as a balm against any fear of freezing with anxiety.
I don’t worry about anxiety, I embrace it with all I am able to be in the moment.
Anxiety is truly a state of mind that comes and goes with some regularity, but remains forever an experience to use as a practice like a form of active meditation.
Anxiety is something to feel while I perform the everyday action of my day to day affairs.
It rises and falls like the tide.
I do not drown in it, I swim through it.
Anxiety is an addition to my awareness.
It is a counter weight that slows me down to a speed that allows me to see, feel, and sense in greater detail.
As a writer or human being, anxiety enhances being who and what I do to the degree that makes me clear in more moments rather than less.
Anxiety seems to make me clearer, sounder, calmer, still, silent, without harm toward myself or others.
Yes, I need to work through it like homework.
Yes, I spend my energy doing it on the regular basis.
Is it worth doing? Yes.