The things I love to do. Ya, there are things that I do for me when I am my usual self and things that I do that for me when I am tired. It is good to be self aware in either case . I am happy to be of service.

I am my usual self or am I? I got up at 6:30 a.m. I was feeling pretty good, but I usually get up around 8. I don’t usually go for a fasting blood test, cortisol, I need to watch my step, I had an extra complicated blood test, I am still looking into it. My doctor asked me to give my email to the secretary, I tried but their phone system doesn’t take texting messages. I ended getting a follow up phone call. I think my email is too much, they probably got it wrong. I tried explaining it simply this morning. I did not love going for blood testing this morning. But I did feel pretty good.

My thing is to be of service, to me or others. It is one thing to collaborate and cooperate but I think it is kinda one or the other these days, I prefer to do both. Like being of service. Both work better. I actually like loving things I do but if I am self aware, I get energy both ways. The aversions I do give me energy because this is a good place to work on my problems. In this case being adverse to being in low energy states.

I love writing. That is why I am getting energy from doing it. I love hiking, guitar and music appreciation. I love curiosity, open mindedness, lifelong learning. It helps to know these things about myself and I just take it easy when I am feeling tired.

I try to eat, sleep and exercise and socialize. I like getting out a few times a day to walk or keep moving. It is what I call retirement: doing my best, doing no harm and living a better life. But we all feel tired and it is best for me to count the things I love and just be aware and act accordingly.

That’s all, time to get out for a walk.