How much can you practice living life? Can you sustain your fear of dying? Do you sense this moment or failure your enemy expresses when he rages about killing you or others who seem to be the ‘other’ or ‘the same’ or ‘one’? Be blunt, tell me you are afraid and coward away from the mothering or producing of death.
Show me your naive and innocent ways. No practice in killing or murder, raping or beating of some or many people. Keep up this innocent practice of non-violence. Even when you crave to beat or rape or want or desire to murder or kill another.
Now practice non-violence with kindness, compassion, patience and do no harm.
Now practice accepting your anger and managing your anger when you are getting angry and starting to act on anger. Yet practice non-violence and do no harm. And feel this bitter sweet anger until you can ‘feel the urge to act’ subside.
Now practice all your life this way as long and as often you are willing and able. Practice being naive about and innocent about killing, murder, beating self or others, no desire or craving to harm yourself or others.
Practice being kind, safe, calm, compassionate while managing any or some or even all the anger you trigger within yourself and accept it or extinguish the urge as much as you are able. And use your patience to suffer any lingering desire to act on your anger.
Know yourself and your being out of control and harming yourself and others. Admit your acts of violence, even when you have stopped living with people who act more violently or more often than yourself. Learn to be more compassionate towards this part of yourself. And to be more compassionate to more violent people.
Know your violent self and other’s not to mimic or act like but to accept and learn to be non-violent.
This is the best way to live life. Open and honestly, most of the time, and becoming more or less violent and non-violent for more or most of your life.
Now, journal about it, if you must or use your journaling as a tool to express your own harm to yourself and others to help yourself cope with the stress of anger or acting on anger and other forms of aggression in your own or others day to day living.
This is living a compassionate non-violent lifestyle. This is only for you. If you choose to share it, do it when you are helping yourself or others live this way. Remember, this is a personal practice to help yourself and loved ones live a good life.