Being Outside (Anti Anxiety)

Being aware of the sights and sounds:

Silence permeates the Forrest, the air hangs thick and fresh, a bird call, the tree, rock, water and hill.

It all fills the landscape with space, a beauty that roams free.

The calm, still, silence in nature captures the awareness of my whole self to deflect any worry I may harbor for the future.

To stand tall, outside my anxiety with high energy inside my body, I push myself to step towards the object of my depression.

Another words, I use my energy to act by doing the thing my anxiety engulfs.

I walk strongly, calmly towards and through the object of my anxiety.

I slowdown only to refocus my intention to do the things I am anxious to do until I am done and home to a safe place to rest.

I call it my anxiety workout.

I strive to use my high and moderate energy level every time I am anxious to do the ‘anxiety workout’.

I practice my anxiety workout to develop the habit in my day to day affairs.

I feel the inner landscape of my Anti Anxiety as a balm against any fear of freezing with anxiety.

I don’t worry about anxiety, I embrace it with all I am able to be in the moment.

Anxiety is truly a state of mind that comes and goes with some regularity, but remains forever an experience to use as a practice like a form of active meditation.

Anxiety is something to feel while I perform the everyday action of my day to day affairs.

It rises and falls like the tide.

I do not drown in it, I swim through it.

Anxiety is an addition to my awareness.

It is a counter weight that slows me down to a speed that allows me to see, feel, and sense in greater detail.

As a writer or human being, anxiety enhances being who and what I do to the degree that makes me clear in more moments rather than less.

Anxiety seems to make me clearer, sounder, calmer, still, silent, without harm toward myself or others.

Yes, I need to work through it like homework.

Yes, I spend my energy doing it on the regular basis.

Is it worth doing? Yes.

Anxiety Of Being (the simple feeling)

Behavior is important when working through very complex parts of being human.

I am describing being able to express feelings, actions, thoughts, beliefs, and who we are on the regular basis.

A big part of being me is about knowing who I am.

There is a lot of awareness or noticing who I am to be the best I can be in the moment.

I’m not a sadist, vain, egotist, arrogant, belligerent or a bully.

But I get depressed, sad, sentimental, scared, afraid, tired, lonely, hungry (cravings, lustful, jealous, obsessive, and ashamed from time to time).

But, don’t we all.

I get happy, calm, bored, aloof, lazy, driven, motivated, anxious, lively, alert, clear, excited, sober, and abrupt.

I feel, think, accept, act, believe and maintain a decent state of awareness.

I struggle to be responsible in a balanced sort of way.

Therefore, I believe there is a great deal of anxiety generated from simple day to day struggles to maintain a healthy level of self -control.

So, I take every opportunity I can to deconstruct my state of anxiety to determine the best course in the moment.

I usually, journal, talk to myself, and think about the day.

I practice good habits each day.

A good one for my anxiety is to act on my best behavior whenever I am tired, lonely, hungry or angry.

I can usually control my feelings better by practicing good habits when my energy is high, moderate or low.

I tend to take things on when my energy is high or moderate but minimize my action when my energy is low.

I believe all my life is important in shaping me into a good life.

I believe in doing a good job with my ‘bad-self’.

I will always take care of myself, so I can live well and engage myself and others in a healthy way.

I guess I have been blessed with good people and support and a willingness to be a healthy person.

So, why all the hubbub about being ‘anxious’?

I want to embrace my anxiety and use this feeling to express self-control and doing no harm to myself and others.

I am learning to act in a responsible, loving way in all my affairs: living well is it’s own reward!

Best of luck to all those trying to do the same in their lives.

Isolation Epidemic

Who wants to collaborate in order to live a longer, healthier life?

The health authority believes we are all slowly dying from a lonely life.

Everyone is so plugged into isolation by driving, working online, using devices like cell phones, tablets, other DVD and cd like devices, the computer is isolating us from each other.

Have you ever noticed the increasing lack of contact when walking through the city streets.

There is a lack of planning for social events with neighbors with in so called community.

People are stopping from touching and feeling each other.

The hug and the kiss are being used less often and with fewer and fewer people.

Don't go touchy-feely on me!

People need to reconnect.

People need to share devices, spaces, watch each other's kids.

A good place to start is at home with a better form of community living.

How do you want to live?

Who do you want to connect with in our dying way?

People die, cities are becoming isolation hubs.

This epidemic is a 'writing on the wall' moment.

We need to reconnect and learn how to live in each other's lives again.

So, unplug from your devices more often, join in on community more often, be in a coop, eat together, play together, learn together.

We need to become better neighbor and friends and co-workers.

We need to reverse the isolation trend.

Let It Be (The Riddle Of Life)

Meaning has a past, present and future.

Happiness is only found in the present.

Being happy seems to be more the profitable of the two.

Yet, meaning allows one to be.

If, I could take all the riches in the world, I would give them away to pursue a life of meaning and receive my riches in that way.

Yet again, a balance will bring true well-being.  To be willing and able, to give and take in good measure, surely this is a fable worth the telling?

He took his nourishment by giving everything he was able.  He gave his time, energy, knowledge, love and pursuit to those he met and to what was there.

He may not have been happy all the time, but he did not take life or loose his own.

Some say, he had an immortal soul:  be free, be full of life, and be ready to ‘seize the day’.