I don’t want to appear ungrateful for all the attention I have received over my life.
But I am suspicious, bored and tired of the ordeal from time to time.
At such times I like to do my routine, rest and relax and work or play.
But I am more on a maintenance mode.
I am extraordinarily grateful for all these things, people, supportive ways and resources that allow me to heal, regroup and reconnect with community and family.
Friends are a wonder at such times.
But these negative feelings are a reflection of a harm not welcome in my life.
I am grateful to be aware of this harm to me and others.
And I will do my best to recover from it and with others who suffer.
Pain is very depressing and fatiguing but is the single most direct route through all this mess.
I must get my rest.