I do what I say and say what I do, once it is done.

Then I decide what I am doing next and do it.

Not always, I said I was going to university to be a doctor. I got sick the very same year and got a medical excuse because I was sick with a rare middle ear virus.

Yet, I said I would start over at Uvic and I finished the next year.

But I was still sick for a number of years.

I said I was going to U of A and I did it.

But I was still sick.

I began to notice how stupid I was.

I am much better after deciding to work for 25 years.

I feel both lucky and stupid.

Another 15 years have gone by working as a wine technician and a middle manager.

I am happy to be home.

But I still feel I have to do something.